As I currently approach graduation and what feels like the beginning of a new chapter in my life within the upcoming year, I have been contemplating my self-image as an artist and how it has changed. When interacting with daily life, I like to sectionalize my day between work, academics, down-time, friends and family, etc. Sorting my reality into categories makes it easier to process and execute my decisions. So it comes to no surprise that in creating artwork I tend to keep the mediums I use separate according to how it applies to my life. 

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On paper, I look like a photographer. I’ve spent much of my academic career pursuing photography with the goal of monetizing my skill for success in a professional setting. As an artist, photography is a medium I have assigned the stress of academic and work life to. Although, for turning inward to explore my own psyche, photography falls short. This has fueled my curiosity for watercolor, acrylic, pastel, sculpting, anything I find remotely attractive in that moment, to better understand the enigmatic workings of my mind and soul. Most 2D media allows the freedom to be messy and unhinged. Whatever strokes or lines or textures I use are puzzle pieces that are spontaneously sculpted to interpret the emotion I am attempting to convey. There isn’t a possibility of making bad or wrong art because viewing my inner world is to see something abstract, without perfect shape or form. Pieces can be more detailed, sometimes I can feel very pointed on certain matters, but ordinarily I’m exploring different sensations that are occurring simultaneously. Constantly bouncing between mediums is something I do because that is how I communicate on multiple levels; photography for the commercial realm and 2-D media for the more spiritual.  

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However, the barrier between the stressful realm of work and my interior emotions has become permeable as I rely more on my own motivations to market profitable skills for survival. As a result, collectively my art has become a sporadic mesh of meduims, color, platforms, and more.